Just Can’t Do it.
I’ve never considered myself the type of person to have “enemies”, well, not since I was a teenager anyway. Oh sure, there are people that I don’t particularly care for, and even a few that I would go so far as to say I dislike, but enemies?
I was thinking about this recently, along with Jesus’ lovely little command to love our enemies. Something that I always thought I would be able to do. (It’s pretty easy to believe you can do something, when you don’t think you’ll ever need to!)
See, the problem is that I have this sister. She’s 4 years older than I am, and she has pretty much hated me from the moment my parents brought me home from the hospital.
For many years I have known that I dislike her. I don’t think she’s a good person, and she is not the type of person that I would have any interest in spending any time with. But it is only recently that I have begun to understand the true depth of my feelings towards her.
Despise….loath….abhor…..these are the words that come to mind when I think of my sister. She is the only person in the universe that I can think very very mean thoughts about, and feel absolutely no guilt.
I can understand that God being a God of absolute love, is capable of loving theives, and rapists, and even serial killers. But when I think of him loving my sister….I find myself thinking…how could He? She’s such a bitch!!!
So I realize that if my feelings for her are really that bad, that she must be the person I need to think of when the Bible talks about enemies. But pray for her (and all the times she spitefully used me??? ) Right there is where my spirituality fails!
